This makes little actual sense, but the Obamas leaving the White House signifies a real change to me. I can’t explain what it is, but there’s a profound sadness I feel very deeply. The sadness that only comes at the end of things you thought would last.
I suppose in a way they were a visual representation of change for me. From 08 till now black people have gone through a cultural Renaissance. Some of us started with small baby fro’s and now swing locs thick as trees over our shoulders as we dance. In these 8 years rappers learned to talk about their feelings, then they learned to sing, then they learned they didn’t even have to be able to really sing to make us feel their soul. It went from Kanye West alone in his honest expression of regular guyness to an entire genre of people who’s sole gimmick is being human. Luke Cage has a fucking tv show. Black children were gunned down and we cried. But we marched and sang and fought. Black women stopped accepting fake compliments delivered with sincerity but filled to the brim with poison. “You pretty for a dark skinned girl” is now seen for all the horrors it encompasses. The colorism, the self hate, the echoing voice of the slave master uttering those disgusting words reflected in the tone of the field nigga that knows no better. Lupita is considered the most beautiful woman on the planet. We still had to see her be raped in a movie.
So much tragedy and triumph intertwined in every day we lived these last 8 years. A backup quarterback took a knee. 10,000 black people flooded the streets of Atlanta in protest of police brutality. The police now are so brutal, they commit drive bys on children. We hold each other after every bullet, we cry so much together. We are all Ricky’s mama, we are all Doughboy. We laugh so much together. So much culture. Migos have an album named culture coming out, three poor black boys from the country changed how everyone rapped their lyrics. They wear so much gold and people hate them for it, Offset was locked in jail for 8 months in a racist ass town I used to live in. All cause of the gold. Every meme, every dance, every slang word was us for 8 years straight. This was the Harlem Renaissance stuffed in a firework and detonated across the entire world. All the while we did this with a black family in office. A black family with a daughter that goes to Chance the Rapper and Joey Bada$$ concerts. Beyonce became Michael Jackson, and then became maybe something greater. They have to cheat at the Grammys now to beat us. This was an ugly time, this was a beautiful time. Obama became President right as I became an adult, and now that I’m almost 30 he’s leaving. Him and his family are leaving and I’m honestly stressed out.
Seeing them there really gave me hope, I don’t know if we will ever have a black president again. I honestly hope Michelle runs in 2020 with Jay-Z as Vice President. I want her back in the White House. I honestly think I need it. I really want to cry right now.